Tag Archive: Growly angry things

July 9

Cutting

The child held me hostage
With razor blades and pills
Blades pressed to her own flesh
Pills swelling in her own stomach

A wise man told me long ago
Do not cut off your nose to spite your face
And I let go of my nose, or blades and pills
And walked into my own life, free

Until the child discovered rage
Like an archeologist in the dirt
Believing she was first to find satisfaction
In cutting off her nose, or cutting off her mother

I don’t know what it’s like
To lose my nose in battle
I can only hope with a mother’s heart
That it doesn’t hurt too much

~ Liesl Dineen 2014

July 7

Hostage

Depression is where anger goes to be alone
It curses and broods, and slams the door
And turns to face you with a glare
Stone-faced and rigid, with deadbolt engaged

And in you are locked, hostage and dupe
While it boldly unfurls its pirate’s curtains
And black smoke billows, filling the room
Driving the light from the corners like rats

Helplessly, you endure the blind rage
And your dulling senses adjust to the dark
Until you settle down there in the dust
And begin to call this place home

~ Liesl Dineen 2014


July 3

Shattered

Truth was a mirror
Shimmering in the light
Revealing everything
Until the axe landed
And the mirror split in two
The pieces repelling each other
And refusing to reflect
Or focus on what was lost
Each refusing to believe
It was only a shard
Because it needed desperately
To be the only truth

~ Liesl Dineen 2014

Day Fourteen

 

2427183Prompt from NaPoWriMo.net:

Today’s prompt (optional, as always) is a little something I’m calling “Twenty Questions.” The idea is to write a poem in which every sentence, except for the last one, is in the form of a question. That’s it! It can be as long or short as you like. The questions can be deep and philosophical (‘what is the meaning of life?’) or routine and practical (‘are you going to eat that?’). Or both!

I went with the literal, and made it 20 questions…

 

 


Twenty Questions

What are you up to today?

Why do you want to know?

What’s your problem?

What do you care?

How can we fix this?

Do you really want to know?

What do you think?

Do you have any idea how much you hurt me every day?

Can you explain?

How can you not see the things you do, the things you don’t do?

How can you expect me to understand if you won’t tell me?

Is it even worth it?

Is anything?

Should we just say goodbye?

Shouldn’t we at least try?

What if we saw someone?

Together?

How else can we figure things out?

When do you want to start?

Is today good for you?

Yes.

~ Liesl Dineen 2014

Day Thirteen

 

9672720This one isn’t comfort food or comfortable, read with care. No prompt.

There are certain words that should keep their meanings, certain meanings that are sacred just because.

 


Definitions

Rape, he says
Meaning governmental taxes
Politicians grinding axes
Meaning exploitation and disruption
Politically supplied corruption
No, I say, that isn’t rape

Rape, I say
Meaning held or drugged, by force exposed
Inexplicably decomposed
Meaning violation, desecration
Left naked, crying and forsaken
No, I say, because we said no

Rape, they say
Meaning they won the high school game
Glorying in their basketball fame
Meaning success with their finesse
Triumph bordering on excess
No, I say, that isn’t rape

Rape, I say
Meaning forever changed, defamed
Secretly, privately ashamed
Meaning what if you hadn’t gone through that door
Meaning shut up you whining whore
No, I say, it’s time we talked

~ Liesl Dineen 2014

How to win at conversations, and life. *

Some people think conversations are for communicating and exchanging ideas. Idiots. Listen, each and every conversation you have is a battle for dominance, and you must assert yourself before the other person, or you will lose, and you will both know that you are the weak one and they are top dog. Avoid this at all costs! Win. Win, win, win.


How to win at a conversation:

  1. Start giving unwanted advice. The more demanding the better. Mention that you’re not criticizing, just trying to help.
  2. When your opponent tries to explain why these ideas won’t work, question every statement that she makes.
  3. Give her no time to answer any of these questions, just keep firing more questions, or reasons that her answers are wrong.
  4. She should, at some point, either ask you to slow down or call you a name. This means you are winning! Act insulted and hurt immediately, preferably start yelling at her so she can’t explain why she said such a horrible thing to you and caused you so much pain.
  5. Ignore her reconciliatory words with a cold stare in a different direction, or yell some more.
  6. Insist on changing the subject, preferably to something she doesn’t care remotely about, and yell at her that you are CHANGING THE SUBJECT if she tries to talk calmly to you.
  7. If she dares to ask you for an apology, tell her how she wronged you and that you are not sorry, and be sure to add in something about how she does nothing but insult and berate you.
  8. Sulk. The longer the better.
  9. When she tries to engage you about anything else, slip in a comment about how she is always starting fights. When she tries to talk about it, call her defensive, and tell her she is always defensive around you.
  10. You win! Now you can move on and find someone else to defeat, and you’ve won the right to treat this person like a bottom-feeder. If it’s someone you live with, you get to add a hashmark to your tally of wins – be sure to always keep score so you can win at the relationship too. This is how you win at life.
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* Seriously??? No, I’m not serious. This is parody, or at the very least, sarcasm. If you thought I was serious, I won… No, just kidding again. I don’t believe life is something to be defeated, and I don’t think people are either. But, I could be wrong. People often prove me wrong.

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